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Yours Eternal...
Once, I nursed a dream of passionate love, and unending adventures, near my heart.
I showed many people it, but they weren't interested in it.
I thought that perhaps, there’s no room in reality for that dream.
So I shut the door on that dream.
I thought it dead.
I gave up on wanting passion, warmth, love, acceptance, understanding.
And the years passed.
And more doors were closed, as no one wanted to see any of my other dreams, either.
And in those years, there was no satisfaction in my relationships, no real love, or any of the things that the dream had stood for, that I yearned for, despite the dream being dead.
One weekend, about two months ago, I discovered that the doors were shut, but they didn’t need to be.
They could be open for all to see. After all, every person has a differing opinion to the last.
So, I opened the doors near my heart, and I found that the dream was now embedded in my heart, barely alive... But still alive.
I must have nestled it close in a desperat
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Literature
Yours Eternal Pt. 2
The fog it blankets my mind
When I look I'm lost I find
Watching the sunset over the sea
Makes me wish the ocean was surrounding me
Looking for my similar soul
Is driving my mind into a hole
My music maker is somewhere out there
The only question remaining is where
I hear your songs calling to me
Your songs of loss, your mercy plea
I'll heal both your soul and your heart
In me and the sea lies your new start
The ocean is where we can be ourselves and lose our minds
So take my hand and let's leave this world behind
© Rebecca Atkins September 2008
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Literature
Yours Eternal Pt. 1
Close your eyes and wait a dream
Don't fight the fog it's not what it seems.
Then through the gloom out she steps
To take care of the heart, which you kept
Once dead and black with age and decay
She looks at you with hope and dismay
Breathes new life into it, now it's red
Heals the scars which once bled
Your dancer is waiting, she is here
To take away the loneliness that you fear
The one you seek lies here in me
take my hand and we'll step into the sea
Into the blue, we'll swim deep
This joy is yours forever to keep.
© Rebecca Atkins September 2008
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Literature
Dawn Is Coming
The old year passes as the new one dawns
Filled with both rose petals and thorns
Love once blinding bright fades away
I lift my face to this new day.
There's much to experience, much I must learn
Let my life this year take a new turn
Wash away the old, take the tears
Remember the joy, take away the fears
Bring on the spring, bring on the dawn,
Let the darkness no longer linger, let me no longer mourn.
My plans are simple, i'm looking for home
Help take me there, leave me not alone
Let me feel it's purity, let me live there long
Let me be alright, let near me no wrong
I renew my vows, here and now, to you my lord i call
Help me keep my promises, help me to move forward
Make me stronger, give me confidence, return me:
A breath taking dancer, and a skilled warrior free
As the dawn comes, so do I,
But I ask for help from high
Send me people strong and true
To help me do what I have to do
Summer will return, and I will once more be me,
I'll live for you, but I'll always be free
© Rebec
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Literature
Your Power's Dead
Sitting in here, I am in shock
My loving feelings I wish to mock
An anger rises, with a sarcastic smile
I see you made it worth my while
I have it all there to quote
And, yes, if I feel like it, I’ll rock the boat
You’ve unleashed the demon in me
Oopsie now you’ve set it free
There’ll be no restraint of the levels I’ll use
It was our laws you chose to abuse
The pay back won’t be swift at first
But once it starts, it’ll just get worse
“I wont leave, I wont let you go” you said
Then I saw your lies, now my heart is dead
My anger is bubbling like a pot on the boil
All your words I’ll remember, but in future I’ll recoil
You promised me the world and more
And now you break the oldest law
It’s a wrong I will not forgive
But it’s my life, and I choose to live.
Every bit of pain and harm you have caused me
Will come back to you by the power of three
Hear me now, I say it clear,
The spell is broken now, my dear
I’ll say it on
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Literature
The Escapist
Reality has been calling me a while
But I’m stuck inside my mind, many a mile
Trauma after trauma, I’ve endured
And I came back to the promises you procured
So here I am again and again
Waiting in hope, for absence of pain
Yet I find my time so poorly wasted
With the horror of reality wasted
Cutting myself loose was once, an option
Those ideals weren’t mine, but I okayed their adoption
And here I stand at the abyss once more
A realization shaking me to the core
Those looking inside can not see
How close to death one can be
I once was a fragile bird in a cage
Reality imposing upon me it’s maze
The lock and the chain have been undone
My rescuer beckoning me forward, to come
So begins my journey, back to coherence
To find my way through realities appearance
To learn the truth, and fight my way
To find a way back into the day
He points out a tower, and I look into the unknown
It reaches to the sky and I think it's made of stone
He tells me that it will show the way out
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Therein, It Lies...
The feeling is crushed
The meaning to it deeper
Look at me and see beyond
The face that is the weeper
See the lonely heartbroken soul
That lives inside what you see
The soul that lives inside
The body which is me
The body weary of this existence
Sick of having to stand
And fight to get through each day
Without an extra hand
Is this existence a punishment?
For a long committed crime
One that’s been conveniently
Lost in the sands of time
Or is it something I’ve posed upon myself
By that within my mind?
Guilty from sense of commitment broken
Is that what I'll find?
I’ve lived a thousand lifetimes before
Dreaming of that distant shore
Waiting and wanting to feel an end
Left feeling cold by even a friend
Travel weary and innocence lost
That is now existences cost
Again and again is how it feels
Like I can’t stop time or fates wheels
It matters not of time or place
In which the crime had a face
But now it’s how to deal with the drama
Which has been caused by bad karm
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Literature
Wishes of the Night
Wishes of the Night
In the end there was nothing,
No hope left to be had
A new day, the same old,
Remaining, the good and the bad...
In my dreams I was always lost
Like the moths span of life
That was me, that was hope
Everywhere, trouble was rife
From the heights,
A lofty angels voice
Fell upon my ears,
And there started a choice.
To find what once was the "me"
To regain all I have lost
To find every part remaining away
I need to stop paying the cost.
From the heights of the towering green
To the calm of the deep ocean blue
Carried on the souths winter winds
Are what I need to continue
Deep in the den of the snow loving wolf
Deep in the soul of the broken one
Lies my ambrosia, my new lease on life
Forgiveness for things said and done
Your soundscapes caress my ears,
Give me my wings on which to fly
My dancers feet, tears uncried
This is what will get me by
Winter and wolf lover in like,
Soul of the ocean, poet
Take me away from reality
We both have a foe in it
My will is no longer lac
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Literature
Ode To Friendship
Ode To Friendship
Don't sit there in the darkness
Hesitate as your life crumbles
Call into the darkness
With cries and incoherent mumbles
Don't sit there in the light
And of me think or wonder
Small smile on your face
"Is she?" you'd ponder
Think I care that it's four AM?
Though I might not be awake
Pick up the phone, knock on my door
I'm not going to break
You want to watch the ocean
For three hours in the dark?
Or sit there on the swings
While its raining in a park?
I'll be there for you through all that
Just tell me "I need you"
And you'll have me by your side
Tell me what to do
Whatever the cause of your sadness,
Whatever your pain
I'll hold your hand; I'll dry your tears
With nothing in my gain.
You feel like you need to talk
Because you're feeling blue?
Feeling restless, you need to get out
but you're not sure what to do?
You know where I am,
And that I'm never "not free"
What can I do for you, what do you need?
Just tell me
Things are great, you have a joy
There’s th
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Literature
Wiccan Wish
Wiccan Wish
If I could make one wish,
And know that it would come true
I'd wish the whole world wiccan
So you can be a witch too.
I think wiccans get the best in life,
We also get the worst
But that’s because the Christians
Rained upon our faith a curse
Common misconceptions of our faith include
Bloodletting, putting spells on men,
Riding broomsticks, eating children
And consorting with Satan
But on the inside, it's not like that,
Nothing like that at all
We're all a part of an intricate web,
A web that’s called the world
We stand in circles and call to us
Energy to love and heal
We thank the lord and lady
For what we get out of this deal
We celebrate all of nature
In an intimate way,
Marking all our sabbats with
The dark of night and light of day
We see life as a circle
A never ending cycle
In death we see new beginning
Not the start of trouble
If the whole world was wiccan
More trees would be standing
Greed would almost be nonexistent
And less wars would be starting
Because
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Within You
Within You.
My strength it is so little,
So i draw from you,
But now your down I'm letting you know
That I'm here for you,
You're one of my dear sisters,
And i cannot bear to see you in pain
Yet i feel your suffering,
Much to my disdain
I hope that time will ease it
And your wisdom helps you through
Though you've been through so much time,
There's so much left for you to do
No matter what's happened,
The past you can't unmake
I have seen you give and give
Its time for you to take
I love you muchly,
And hold you high esteem
And this little slice of heaven
Is so fragile it seems
I'll back you up on your decisions;
Give you love and support
Return the things that you to me
Could have only taught
May the gods watch over you
Each and every day
May their blessings be plentiful,
In each and every way.
© Rebecca Atkins
5/6/2005
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Literature
My Family (pt.1)
My Family (pt.1)
With the love of a soul so true
In your darkest hour you can come shining through
Hold your head up high,
Let your spirit run free, never let it die
I was lost, alone, never to be found
Dark inside my soul, losing my ground
I stumbled on to your path
And began to warm myself at your hearth
And time went on, so we grew
Making bonds, a friendship anew
So much trust I put into to you
But it fell apart, yet so right on cue
It was a man that drove us far apart,
But he was a boy, he got into each heart
The bridges were burnt a second time around
And on and on it went, till we stood our ground
My blood I lost once more
And that was enough, I showed them the door
Alone and afraid,
I needed to be saved
And you all let me in… much to my delight
Justin first, he showed me the light
Then Gabby, her comfort close to my heart
And Stella, with her wisdom to impart
Amber and I were always tentative
Though she's the one that encouraged me to live
And on so the battles raged, and somewh
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Pretending.
Pretending.
You hurt me in ways I’d never dreamed
Stole my innocence
Stole my essence
All joys of a child now gone
Now a broken shadow left
Halfway between a child and an adult
A victim of an unbearable crime
But I thought I was the perpetrator
You placed the blame on me!
I thought you were gone
Eleven years back
But today,
I stand again to witness your black heart
My blood froze in my veins
I became the embodiment of fear
Nothing less
Then I remembered
“Fear is born from pain”
And no more it shall be
Stronger now then I ever was
Tomorrow, stronger then today
All the pain you caused me
The way you twisted my soul
The way you made me hate my self
Is nothing but a fresh memory.
And in the next life, may the law come to you
By one it’s given, yet three returned
You fucked me over,
The debt will be returned
So I sit here, my heart aching
My soul darkened by your presence
I write this…
Every bit of pain cutting me
Deeper and deeper
I’ll never get rest from this
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Haven
Five acres of land, largely covered in woods, with a log cabin nestled gently in its center. Bordering one side, a mild walk away, is the shore of Lake Huron, whose consistently rocky shores deter the weak-hearted and weak-footed. On the opposite side, also thankfully far from the house, is M25. At night, the distant wooshing of semi-trucks flying by is the lullaby of this land. The trees stood tall, asprotectors, shielding me from the sun above, from people and distant neighbors on all sides, from being seen or found except by those who know where to look.
The original, full sized property belonged to my great-grand-relations. My mother remembers when the land was covered, border to border, with thick groves of trees – elm, ash, and oak trees, evergreen trees and sumac darting the edges of the property – a wild land, untouched. She had always wanted to own it, ever since she was a little girl. This was the left-over, unwanted section when that land was divided into nice, even chunks.
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In the Dark
In the Dark
I am standing here in front of you
I see my face, a face, a mask
No longer me, myself and I
Now it is but someone else
Someone new, someone different, another me
You come along and I see you, you don't see me
A facade goes up, I hide
No longer is there a we
With this secret in the dark, we are apart
There is you and there is me
I want to say it, I want it said
Your reaction unknown, your thoughts unknown
I want this out, I want it heard
I'm not just a boy, but a changed man
Please listen, please accept
The facade goes and there I stand
This secret and I are one
The secret is me
A secret no longer a mystery
I am who I am
Please accept, please listen
Open your heart, your mind
This change is good, this change is me
Your reaction is unknown
But I hope it will be love
By Drystan
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I feel like time is escaping me. It's hard to keep up with everything. Even this. 

Things that have changed: I'm a carer for one, now. I'm married. I'm trying a new writing genre (non fantasy fiction) after a long break from writing. We still have our cats, and they're all well. 

New Books: Moomins, by Tove Jansson. OMG. If you haven't read these, find and read them. If you hate reading, the 1990's series is on DVD and youtube. 

New location: Rural-ish. Loving all the trees. All the colours of the oak and maples this past autumn were so astounding.

When it comes to writing, I've found it hard to knuckle into it, but I found inspiration in the oddest place - the bottom of this lovely old, ugly teapot, and this beautiful little cup with birds detailed on it. Those with some hot water and herbs, and I'm set as long as I keep getting a top up. 

To anyone who has been wondering where I've been, or worrying, I'm sorry. Life took over. Please message me if you'd like. I'm doing mostly okay. 
I feel like time is escaping me. It's hard to keep up with everything. Even this. 

Things that have changed: I'm a carer for one, now. I'm married. I'm trying a new writing genre (non fantasy fiction) after a long break from writing. We still have our cats, and they're all well. 

New Books: Moomins, by Tove Jansson. OMG. If you haven't read these, find and read them. If you hate reading, the 1990's series is on DVD and youtube. 

New location: Rural-ish. Loving all the trees. All the colours of the oak and maples this past autumn were so astounding.

When it comes to writing, I've found it hard to knuckle into it, but I found inspiration in the oddest place - the bottom of this lovely old, ugly teapot, and this beautiful little cup with birds detailed on it. Those with some hot water and herbs, and I'm set as long as I keep getting a top up. 

To anyone who has been wondering where I've been, or worrying, I'm sorry. Life took over. Please message me if you'd like. I'm doing mostly okay. 

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Bec - Winters Wolf
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Australia
I'm crazy. Inventive. Living the impossible. I love music and nature - Soundtracks, metal, wolves, wind, waterfalls, the ocean.

Current Residence: Greenhill SA, Australia
Favourite genre of music: heavy rock, symphonic metal, soundtracks, opera, classical
Favourite style of art: Fantasy, Landscapes, Poetry
Operating System: XP
MP3 player of choice: Foobar
Wallpaper of choice: Disney
Favourite cartoon character: Michiru Kaioh, Gir
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo: It's September 6th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year! Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love: --- Birthdays Team This birthday greeting was brought to you by: :devSilversymphony:
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    Happy birthday! I give free requests for people on their birthday, would you like one?
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Thank you! That's very lovely, but I'll decline. *hugs*
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Happy [early] birthday!
Hope your birthday blossoms into lots of dreams come true!
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Thank you very much for the (early) birthday wishes ^_^
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's September 6th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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Happy Birthday :party:

(guess what? we share a birthday!)
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Happy early birthday!
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